Being sexually assaulted makes you think very differently every day.
You constantly think that it’s going to happen again. Any second now, that person will walk around the corner and it will all happen again.
You fear for others, especially children. Hoping and praying that they are safe at home and no one has touched them.
You think, What would my life had been like if this didn’t happen? Who would I be? Where would I be?
You constantly argue with yourself, Did that really happen? Maybe if I lie to myself and say it didn’t happen then the PTSD will just disappear.
Any time you are alone with a person, your mind goes straight to, Are they going to sexually assault me too?
Always on the look out. Looking over your shoulder even when you are in a room by yourself.
You have thoughts of, Well maybe I deserved this. Maybe everything that they said to me was true. Even though deep down we BOTH know it’s not.
If you experience any of these things I just want to say, I’m so very sorry. I’m so sorry that that person did unthinkable, disgusting and traumatic things to you. You never deserved any of it. I’m so sorry that you struggle daily just trying to live your life in peace, but get flooded with those thoughts, feelings and emotions. I know how debilitating it can be.
I want you to know how worthy you are. How loved you are. How beautiful you are.
You aren’t alone in any of those thoughts and feelings. And there is nothing wrong with you.
Today I’m sending my love to you and a virtual hug.
As Always,
You Deserve Peace
You Are Not Your Diagnosis
You Are Not Alone
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