This one is a very hard topic for me. It’s something I have a hard time talking about and coming to terms with. I think a lot of us out there unfortunately have toxic mothers. They have played a huge negative roll in our mental health or are the cause of our trauma.
You try your hardest to get along and show them love and forgiveness but it’s all one sided.
The Toxic Mother does what The Toxic Mother wants to do, regardless of your feelings, emotions or well-being. They just don’t care.
They fat shame you, belittle you, tell you that you aren’t capable, abuse you, make you feel like you are nothing, completely worthless. They deprive you of love, food, friends, family and even your own father.
Why? I don’t know. Is it a game to her? Is she really that mean? Have I caused her to be this way? I have been an almost perfect child. Why can’t she love me or protect me? What would I have to do to make her actually care about me?
She’s one of the most selfish, nastiest people you have ever known and you strive every day to be nothing like her.
You purposely want to become a better person than her so you can almost rub it in her face and say, “Hey look at me!!”
Is that wrong or selfish of you? No…it’s not. You have had to fight everyday of your life to be okay. To undo all the trauma, the horrible words and things she has said and done to you.
You are nothing like her. I am nothing like her. We are nothing like her. And we never will be.
As Always
You Deserve Peace
You Are Not Your Diagnosis
You Are Not Alone
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